12-18 Wins
12/18/19 Wins
1. Gained access to my Litecoin! Yay!
2. Withdrew my Bitcoin from Bittrex and got it on my Electrum Legacy Wallet
3. Talked with Joey & escaped Endless Hentai Trap. Deleted all pictures, unfollowed and unsubscribed from their Twitter's & Redditts. Saved from the clutches of destruction by God!
4. Played Guitar instead - practiced Hallelujah. Wrote down all the chords for O Holy Night.
5. Received an offer to make money writing!
Thinking about how I may be settling playing at this church with only a few people.
Yeah?
We'll see Mr. Sloppy Shoe String Strap and old crusty strings! Ha! Is your guitar at professional standards? Certainly not.
See if you can even play the song!
You just had to write out 15 chords you didn't know before!
Thinking about how I generally do things in extreme.
I won't spend my time binging Netflix, TV Shows, or movies. Anymore. But I'll binge on hentai, porn, sex games for hours easy no problem not even realizing time is passing. In a complete zombie doped out state. Compulsively. That's why sexual transmutation is MANDATORY. Because success requires action. Action that MUST be done. COMPULSORY ACTION. So TRANSMUTE that NEED to fucking watch porn for hours into NEED TO FUCKING SUCCEED AND MAKE MONEY FOR MY FAMILY AND LOVED ONES.
FINANCIALLY SUCCESSFUL & TIME SUCCESSFUL
OWNER OF MY MIND
DO NOT BE A DRIFTER
Just going to what feels good. What's comfortable. Homeostasis. Not expanding. Not growing. Not getting out of your comfort zone often. Communiating with people. Calling them. Reaching out OFTEN. Connecting with others.
Every fleeting fantasy thought is really a longing to connect with another human. To express & share emotion.
Fantasy is repressed connection.
When you feel the desire to cope with loneliness through porn or hentai. Know that is what you're doing. Medicating. Coping. Numbing yourself. Distracting. Popping a pill. Changing your brain chemistry through pixels on a screen, tricking your primal mind that you are going to procreate, a major driving force of life.
But it's fooled. You're mocking God by deriving pleasure from that. Knowing exactly what you're doing. Intentionally looking up kinky niche scenarios to satisfy that neurotic sexual itch. Desire to see something new. Novelty.
Fooling your primal monkey mind into it is surrounded by millions of ideal sexual mates. Hundreds of thousands to view and impregnate and spread the speed.
If you save your seed you're much better off than just blowing your load! Completely wasting your life force energy. Now what have you got left to create with? You're drained completely by a digital seductress. A pixellated whore. An illusory prostitute. He doesn't know you exist. You probably will never meet. You'll just be all alone, by yourself in a dark room. No one will ever want to know what you just did. You think anyway would want to hear about how good you felt pleasing yourself looking at sexual images alone by yourself with your dick in your hand? Soon DECADES will go by and you'll still be at that same level of maturity. Alone, by yourself, with your dick in your hand in your 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's, and beyond doesn't sound so fun, does it?
Happy Holidays.
As you and your phone and computer try and get back that same high you had watching Christmas Porn, Holiday Theme Television Show/Movie/Cartoon Porn Parody's from the past. Laughing alone by yourself in a dark room. No one to share it with. No memory created with anyone. Nothing substantial built. No income created. Just you giving yourself good images looking at perverse, ungodly, wicked, idolatrous, fornication and evil. Disgracing, dishonoring, abominable, disgusting, defiling.
Trying to relive that same high as the pleasure slowly gets less and less. Before you realize it you have PIED. If you somehow get lucky enough to get outside the house and finally have a real relationship with a real woman who could seriously please and satisfy you beyond any digital ho could possibly, you can't get it up. You're not turned on. You've trained your brain to fuck your phone not a real woman. You can't satisfy or please her. You're basically castrated. You're in the castrati. Not the Illuminati. The Castrati. You've castrated yourself by watching too much porn, jacking off, and ejaculating.
Here is where I disagree with PMO.
Porn = BAD
Masturbation = Bad
Orgasm = Bad
Who the fuck said ORGASM should be bad?!
Orgasm is how we all were born!
Woman can have orgasms WHILE GIVING BIRTH!
Your father and your mother orgasmed, and you were born!
Orgasm is NOT the problem!
The problem is EJACULATION. Spilling your seed. Letting your semen of your testicles. Expelling all the jizz out your balls.
THAT IS THE MAIN PROBLEM
NOW Porn is definitely an issue because it contributes to it!
Try and find some porn where you don't see ejaculation.
It is part of the sexual procreation process.
But it also is a trigger for men to want to imitate that seemingly super masculine macho actors, so they ejaculate too.
TAKING DAYS OR WEEKS TO RECOVER, RECUPERATE, RECREATE THAT VITAL LIFE FORCE ENERGY
It is a way to pacify men.
Make them weak.
Not disciplined or in control of themselves.
If you're not aware or conscious of this, you will definitely deplete yourself, ejaculating much too frequently. Being haphazard, lackadaisical, foolish, will-nilly, and unintentional with retaining your semen. Keep your balls full of jizz. THEN you can create much more harmonious results in your life! You'll be amazed at how much you can accomplish.
The best way to maintain balls full of jizz is to NOT WATCH PORN OR HENTAI. OR FANTASIZE ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH ANYONE WHO IS NOT YOUR SPOUSE/WIFE.
Get turned on.
Feel the sexual energy.
BUT DO NOT FANTASIZE.
Fantasizing leads to acting out.
Watching porn.
Actually feeling desire to rape a woman.
Getting drunk to have an excuse as to why you acted out sexually inappropriately.
HOWEVER
Retaining your semen and using hundreds of videos and pictures of hentai and porn releases ridiculous levels of dopamine and serotonin in your brain. Super fucking outrageous levels of neurotransmitters pooping through your brain. Free drugs.
That cost you later.
Those daily tasks you used to take great joy in no longer seem as fun without your adulteress by your side.
Your endless # of side chicks want to join you and blow you as you go to work.
Get doped up any time and any where with an endless supply to fulfill any fantasy you have. Just search for it.
Yet you'll never be satisfied
As long as you retain your semen and never ejaculate you'll have dopamine, the driving, desire, go, urge to action, want neurotransmitter is firing in your brain. You will not want to rest until you ejaculate.
If you do, then serotonin and oxytocin will be released. You'll feel more, "Mission Accomplished." You've created life. You have procreated. You've done the deed you were created to do.
Problem is you really haven't. You've tricked your physiology. You've just jizzed in your hand. You've mated with electricity. Not a female. No other living soul. No one to laugh or cry with. No one to spend years with. No one to create a life or a family with. Just you with your dick in your hand.
Until you have built up the desire to go again, you can, repeating the same terrible, endless cycle. Disconnecting from others. Disconnecting from God. Rejecting your Higher Self. Refusing the call to a greater mission of passion and purpose. Stuck in this endless, lonely cycle of seeking to self-soothe, self-satisfy, without asking ANYONE for help, or letting anyone know what's going on with you.
Devastating.
Ruining.
Treacherous.
Ruthless.
Cold-Hearted Bitch
Although I feel better than Jeffrey Epstein.
Sure, I cope by watching Samus Aran Fuck Metroids.
However I'm certain I shouldn't compare myself to him.
Perhaps the entire story is a made up lie. I don't know. It's definitely dreadful if it's true. I suppose I was thinking I am a better, or more morally right, on higher ground than someone who creates an island to fuck and kill kids on, drinking their blood. However all sin is equal. If you break one law than you've broken them all.
I'm no better than Jeffrey Epstein. If I were him I would be doing the same thing.
Do I really believe I have control over my life?
I mean seriously.
I have told myself I was going to stop smoking 10 years ago.
Did that happen?
I have said I will not watch porn or hentai anymore hundreds of times.
I have told Joey twice now I will put Covenant Eyes on all my devices.
Have I done it yet?
Why?
I WANT TO KEEP LOOKING
BUT WHY?
It feels good
It's the feel good feelings like Shawn talked about.
Is that in line with my definite major purpose? Am I here just to feel good? Will I feel just as good connecting to other humans if I have allowed those filthy thoughts to enter my eyes and impregnate my subconscious mind?
Don't you want to SAVE those feel good feelings for WHEN you are interacting and connecting with others?
Don't you want to GIVE those same really positive emotions to others?
Perhaps even give BETTER feelings than those?
It's limited. These feelings. These emotions. This life. Use it to impact for the better the most lives as humanly possible. Don't limit yourself. Don't allow yourself to lose your fire. Don't lose hope. Keep your passion alive. CONNECT. Don't disconnect. Confess. Tell the truth. Be honest.
1. Gained access to my Litecoin! Yay!
2. Withdrew my Bitcoin from Bittrex and got it on my Electrum Legacy Wallet
3. Talked with Joey & escaped Endless Hentai Trap. Deleted all pictures, unfollowed and unsubscribed from their Twitter's & Redditts. Saved from the clutches of destruction by God!
4. Played Guitar instead - practiced Hallelujah. Wrote down all the chords for O Holy Night.
5. Received an offer to make money writing!
Thinking about how I may be settling playing at this church with only a few people.
Yeah?
We'll see Mr. Sloppy Shoe String Strap and old crusty strings! Ha! Is your guitar at professional standards? Certainly not.
See if you can even play the song!
You just had to write out 15 chords you didn't know before!
Thinking about how I generally do things in extreme.
I won't spend my time binging Netflix, TV Shows, or movies. Anymore. But I'll binge on hentai, porn, sex games for hours easy no problem not even realizing time is passing. In a complete zombie doped out state. Compulsively. That's why sexual transmutation is MANDATORY. Because success requires action. Action that MUST be done. COMPULSORY ACTION. So TRANSMUTE that NEED to fucking watch porn for hours into NEED TO FUCKING SUCCEED AND MAKE MONEY FOR MY FAMILY AND LOVED ONES.
FINANCIALLY SUCCESSFUL & TIME SUCCESSFUL
OWNER OF MY MIND
DO NOT BE A DRIFTER
Just going to what feels good. What's comfortable. Homeostasis. Not expanding. Not growing. Not getting out of your comfort zone often. Communiating with people. Calling them. Reaching out OFTEN. Connecting with others.
Every fleeting fantasy thought is really a longing to connect with another human. To express & share emotion.
Fantasy is repressed connection.
When you feel the desire to cope with loneliness through porn or hentai. Know that is what you're doing. Medicating. Coping. Numbing yourself. Distracting. Popping a pill. Changing your brain chemistry through pixels on a screen, tricking your primal mind that you are going to procreate, a major driving force of life.
But it's fooled. You're mocking God by deriving pleasure from that. Knowing exactly what you're doing. Intentionally looking up kinky niche scenarios to satisfy that neurotic sexual itch. Desire to see something new. Novelty.
Fooling your primal monkey mind into it is surrounded by millions of ideal sexual mates. Hundreds of thousands to view and impregnate and spread the speed.
If you save your seed you're much better off than just blowing your load! Completely wasting your life force energy. Now what have you got left to create with? You're drained completely by a digital seductress. A pixellated whore. An illusory prostitute. He doesn't know you exist. You probably will never meet. You'll just be all alone, by yourself in a dark room. No one will ever want to know what you just did. You think anyway would want to hear about how good you felt pleasing yourself looking at sexual images alone by yourself with your dick in your hand? Soon DECADES will go by and you'll still be at that same level of maturity. Alone, by yourself, with your dick in your hand in your 40's, 50's, 60's, 70's, 80's, and beyond doesn't sound so fun, does it?
Happy Holidays.
As you and your phone and computer try and get back that same high you had watching Christmas Porn, Holiday Theme Television Show/Movie/Cartoon Porn Parody's from the past. Laughing alone by yourself in a dark room. No one to share it with. No memory created with anyone. Nothing substantial built. No income created. Just you giving yourself good images looking at perverse, ungodly, wicked, idolatrous, fornication and evil. Disgracing, dishonoring, abominable, disgusting, defiling.
Trying to relive that same high as the pleasure slowly gets less and less. Before you realize it you have PIED. If you somehow get lucky enough to get outside the house and finally have a real relationship with a real woman who could seriously please and satisfy you beyond any digital ho could possibly, you can't get it up. You're not turned on. You've trained your brain to fuck your phone not a real woman. You can't satisfy or please her. You're basically castrated. You're in the castrati. Not the Illuminati. The Castrati. You've castrated yourself by watching too much porn, jacking off, and ejaculating.
Here is where I disagree with PMO.
Porn = BAD
Masturbation = Bad
Orgasm = Bad
Who the fuck said ORGASM should be bad?!
Orgasm is how we all were born!
Woman can have orgasms WHILE GIVING BIRTH!
Your father and your mother orgasmed, and you were born!
Orgasm is NOT the problem!
The problem is EJACULATION. Spilling your seed. Letting your semen of your testicles. Expelling all the jizz out your balls.
THAT IS THE MAIN PROBLEM
NOW Porn is definitely an issue because it contributes to it!
Try and find some porn where you don't see ejaculation.
It is part of the sexual procreation process.
But it also is a trigger for men to want to imitate that seemingly super masculine macho actors, so they ejaculate too.
TAKING DAYS OR WEEKS TO RECOVER, RECUPERATE, RECREATE THAT VITAL LIFE FORCE ENERGY
It is a way to pacify men.
Make them weak.
Not disciplined or in control of themselves.
If you're not aware or conscious of this, you will definitely deplete yourself, ejaculating much too frequently. Being haphazard, lackadaisical, foolish, will-nilly, and unintentional with retaining your semen. Keep your balls full of jizz. THEN you can create much more harmonious results in your life! You'll be amazed at how much you can accomplish.
The best way to maintain balls full of jizz is to NOT WATCH PORN OR HENTAI. OR FANTASIZE ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH ANYONE WHO IS NOT YOUR SPOUSE/WIFE.
Get turned on.
Feel the sexual energy.
BUT DO NOT FANTASIZE.
Fantasizing leads to acting out.
Watching porn.
Actually feeling desire to rape a woman.
Getting drunk to have an excuse as to why you acted out sexually inappropriately.
HOWEVER
Retaining your semen and using hundreds of videos and pictures of hentai and porn releases ridiculous levels of dopamine and serotonin in your brain. Super fucking outrageous levels of neurotransmitters pooping through your brain. Free drugs.
That cost you later.
Those daily tasks you used to take great joy in no longer seem as fun without your adulteress by your side.
Your endless # of side chicks want to join you and blow you as you go to work.
Get doped up any time and any where with an endless supply to fulfill any fantasy you have. Just search for it.
Yet you'll never be satisfied
As long as you retain your semen and never ejaculate you'll have dopamine, the driving, desire, go, urge to action, want neurotransmitter is firing in your brain. You will not want to rest until you ejaculate.
If you do, then serotonin and oxytocin will be released. You'll feel more, "Mission Accomplished." You've created life. You have procreated. You've done the deed you were created to do.
Problem is you really haven't. You've tricked your physiology. You've just jizzed in your hand. You've mated with electricity. Not a female. No other living soul. No one to laugh or cry with. No one to spend years with. No one to create a life or a family with. Just you with your dick in your hand.
Until you have built up the desire to go again, you can, repeating the same terrible, endless cycle. Disconnecting from others. Disconnecting from God. Rejecting your Higher Self. Refusing the call to a greater mission of passion and purpose. Stuck in this endless, lonely cycle of seeking to self-soothe, self-satisfy, without asking ANYONE for help, or letting anyone know what's going on with you.
Devastating.
Ruining.
Treacherous.
Ruthless.
Cold-Hearted Bitch
Although I feel better than Jeffrey Epstein.
Sure, I cope by watching Samus Aran Fuck Metroids.
However I'm certain I shouldn't compare myself to him.
Perhaps the entire story is a made up lie. I don't know. It's definitely dreadful if it's true. I suppose I was thinking I am a better, or more morally right, on higher ground than someone who creates an island to fuck and kill kids on, drinking their blood. However all sin is equal. If you break one law than you've broken them all.
I'm no better than Jeffrey Epstein. If I were him I would be doing the same thing.
Do I really believe I have control over my life?
I mean seriously.
I have told myself I was going to stop smoking 10 years ago.
Did that happen?
I have said I will not watch porn or hentai anymore hundreds of times.
I have told Joey twice now I will put Covenant Eyes on all my devices.
Have I done it yet?
Why?
I WANT TO KEEP LOOKING
BUT WHY?
It feels good
It's the feel good feelings like Shawn talked about.
Is that in line with my definite major purpose? Am I here just to feel good? Will I feel just as good connecting to other humans if I have allowed those filthy thoughts to enter my eyes and impregnate my subconscious mind?
Don't you want to SAVE those feel good feelings for WHEN you are interacting and connecting with others?
Don't you want to GIVE those same really positive emotions to others?
Perhaps even give BETTER feelings than those?
It's limited. These feelings. These emotions. This life. Use it to impact for the better the most lives as humanly possible. Don't limit yourself. Don't allow yourself to lose your fire. Don't lose hope. Keep your passion alive. CONNECT. Don't disconnect. Confess. Tell the truth. Be honest.
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